Ups & Downs
Yesterday was a hard day, a REALLY hard day. Today was a lot better. In fact the difference was astounding to me.
I won’t go into personal details about either day. I will mention that today I was pondering how much the weather had to do with it. Yesterday was grey and chilly with constant rain. It was that wet kind of cold that seeps all the way into your bones. Today was snowy and bright. Not sunny by any means, but something about the snow felt cleaner, happier.
It’s not exactly that simple. There were some things going on yesterday besides the weather that got me down. However, something about getting out in the snow this morning made the heavy stuff feel lighter, my problems seem smaller.
Life is like that. There are ups and downs. Yoga is like that. It’s not a magic fix that makes life all sunshine and rainbows. The practice has transformed my life, certainly. I first came to yoga as a way to deal with crippling anxiety and panic disorder, and it has definitely helped me in so many ways. But, anxiety is still there. It’s still a part of my life. It’s like Simon and Garfunkel sang, “Hello darkness, my old friend. I’ve come to talk with you again.” Yoga simply helps me navigate the inevitable ups and downs that are always going to be there.
It’s not a cure. It’s a practice. It’s a lifelong commitment. It’s a way of life. It’s going outside to play in the snow after a really rough day.